My question is whether I may view Hashem as a She. I find that viewing Him as a He keeps me distant from him, I sense barriers. I believe if I could view HIm as a She I'd truly be able to trust in Him, I'd find comfort in His Presence, I'd be more real, not be afraid of being emotionally naked before him. I need him in my life now more than ever before. But the only way I could relate to Him is if I view him as a She.