I have been married for 35yrs. I almost walked out of my wedding. I did not find my wife very attractive and had concerns about her personality & character. I wanted to date other girls but had lost a parent recently and was not emotionally ready. I married out of fear not faith. As is we have three children. My relationship with them is decent but could be better if it wasn’t for marital issues. I’m tired of the hurtful exchange. I have not been intimate with my wife for over 15 yrs including my honeymoon. I am 60 yrs old now. What to do? I have thought of separating but remaining friends and be there for one another. But don’t know how to go about it, not sure if right thing to do and not much money.