Non-Jewish But Raised Jewish
I grew up in a Jewish family, was raised going to shul, and had a bat mitzvah. I’ve been active at my university’s Hillel, and my Jewish identity is really important to me. I’m almost 22 years old, and I just found out that my grandmother on my mother’s side isn’t Jewish (although her husband, my grandfather, was). My mother and her family are from the Soviet Union, and she was raised with all of the stigma and struggle associated with being Jewish (as well as with Jewish cultural practices). My mom has always identified as Jewish, so I never thought to ask about our family history. I’m not quite sure what to do — I know that this means that I’m not Jewish, but my identity and how people view me hasn’t changed. I know that Jewishness is matrilineal, so I would need to convert in order for my children to be considered Jewish, but what would the conversion process look like for me? Would it be different than the standard process in any way?