Emuna and Bitachon

Question

I always have questions about Hashem even though I grew up frum.

Whenever I read Stories of emuna and bituchon I cringe.

I read enough hashkafa already and I still don’t understand.

I am in therapy for childhood abuse so I know my questions make sense.

But still, do I have hope that one day I will understand that I don’t have to understand?

How can I read articles without feeling pain and resistance to every word that connects to God?

11 months

Answers

  1. It is absolutely understandable that you have problems building your relationship with Hashem after everything that you went through as a child. And I think that it makes perfect sense that you find books on Emunah and Bitachon to be difficult to read and absorb.

    I don’t know if you have tried reading any of Rabbi Ezriel Tauber’s works. If not, I would suggest that perhaps you try some. What makes Rabbi Tauber’s books different from anyone else’s? He also experienced enormous trauma in his childhood (he was a young child in Eastern Europe during the Holocaust) and was able to write about Emunah and Bitachon from his own personal encounters with evilness and difficulties. He also writes in a way that does not “talk down” to the reader, but rather from a vantage point of complete empathy.

    Best wishes from the AskTheRabbi.org Team